Pain, suffering, tragedy strikes us all in different ways. The way we deal with these issues is equally different. I recently was teaching our students on letting go of our past mistakes or things that have happened to us and moving forward and living for Him in all areas of our lives. "If you want to start the next chapter, you have to quit rereading the last."
Tonight, I revisited my words and decided to take it to the fire bowl; I printed off notes, emails, screen shots, pictures, emptied out files and deleted computer files; all of which I had held on to as a reminder. As I watched the ashes form in the bowl a friend reminded me of Isaiah 61:3. Though not completely in context, I know that part of healing is letting go of the past. So for me. I say at this moment in my life...those ashes are beautiful.
They are beautiful because they symbolize that God is faithful. In those times of suffering and pain...He is there. In those times I questioned my own calling...He was there. He was there providing me with friends who affirmed my calling. He faithfully provided me a wife who loved and prayed for me and spoke words of affirmation over me. He was there moving in my life and those around me. Though we fear the moment, though we cry ourselves to sleep sometimes, though we take character blows, glares, and scowls...He is there.
A time has now come...tonight in fact...where the Lord spoke so clear to me..."Peter, it's time to move forward." I knew that there was no way for me to move forward while allowing such baggage to remain. Thus, symbolically I created beautiful ashes. Applying the words of the Apostle Paul to my life, 'forgetting what is behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 3:13-14).
Christ Follower, Husband, Father, Student Pastor, and Lover of all things Garlic and Bacon.